burntlardass
In the land of a thousand souls, we will carry on through the rain...
Oh, just something important...
Hi everyone.
I guess I have not been completely honest with you, now have I...because truthfully a long time ago something happened. Something happened that's been having a million and one ups and downs all the time.
Her name is Kimberly. I've been dating her on and off since February 7, 2007. We've gone through many ups and downs and broken up and dated a million and one times since that day and she's made me plenty happy and mad and all that good stuff. I can't deny this anymore because I'm about to lose her right now as I speak on this very phone at this very moment in the morning.
I'm doing this because I gotta be open and honest now. I can't hide it anymore and I know I'm going to hurt some people in this process but it's something that has to be done. I love her to death and I cannot lose her.
This is being my true, honest self right here. I was hiding in a lie for all this time and now I'm coming out and being truthful. I love you, babe, and you know I do and I'm doing this for you because this is going to make you trust me again after all my fuck ups and wrongdoings. I just hope this is enough to tell you that I love you and I want you to be happy again...
Brandon aka Ascendancy
I guess I have not been completely honest with you, now have I...because truthfully a long time ago something happened. Something happened that's been having a million and one ups and downs all the time.
Her name is Kimberly. I've been dating her on and off since February 7, 2007. We've gone through many ups and downs and broken up and dated a million and one times since that day and she's made me plenty happy and mad and all that good stuff. I can't deny this anymore because I'm about to lose her right now as I speak on this very phone at this very moment in the morning.
I'm doing this because I gotta be open and honest now. I can't hide it anymore and I know I'm going to hurt some people in this process but it's something that has to be done. I love her to death and I cannot lose her.
This is being my true, honest self right here. I was hiding in a lie for all this time and now I'm coming out and being truthful. I love you, babe, and you know I do and I'm doing this for you because this is going to make you trust me again after all my fuck ups and wrongdoings. I just hope this is enough to tell you that I love you and I want you to be happy again...
Brandon aka Ascendancy
No Dreams - Dream of a Perfect World?
And So We're Almost to Where We Should Be
Welcome back to this, well, blog of mine, fellow bloggers and whomever you might be.
If you're wondering about Kelsey, well, everything has been running smooth and as sweet as ever. I can't believe how amazing she is. I mean really, who calls me at 6:30 in the morning just to say "hi" and "I love you"? Well, she does. There was one downside to this whole amazing, beautiful relationship that's blossomed within only a couple months of time. Her mother, who has been nicknamed "The Root of all Evil", has stopped us from being together once already. This is because her and Kelsey's dad are going through the whole divorce process and that really sucks. But, going through this process has shown who's the superiour parent here, and that is obviously her dad.
Anyway, despite our time in the sun being a little delayed, the up side is I'm graduating this summer. Yes, the one thing we all look forward to. And since Kelsey gets out before me, our time in the sun is still coming, and still so very close. Honestly, it's been so long since someone this amazing has ever come into my life. No one can really match up to her at this point in time, and I mean that. No one!!!
As for everything else, things are doing quite alright. I went to the doctor's today and got tons of insulin for free. Normally it would take hundreds of dollars just to keep me alive because well, that shit is expensive. But for the time being I have plenty of insulin to last me a while. That's good, because it saves us money which is going to bring us closer to Wyoming which is where we should have been a long time ago.
I don't wanna go to Wyoming right away since Kelsey is on the other side of these hills known as the Sierra Nevada and I need my time with her before anything else. She does take priority 1 right now and she's going to stay that until my time with her is eternal. I know, I been down this road before with other girls. It's true, I know, but shit they all led me to believe that I'd have an eternal sun with them. Kelsey, though, is so beautiful and she's going to give me that eternal sun and I'm going to be right there with her. At least, with the way things look it's going to be that way.
Honestly...fuck. She's so amazing and she knows this herself...you've made me the happiest man alive. You're going to read this and see that my words hold oh so true. Just come to get me and you'll have me forever and ever and ever and we'll see every sunset and every sunrise together, and I swear on it. I love you, darling.
As for me raving about how amazing Kelsey Elizabeth Herrera is, that's pretty much it.
-Brandon
If you're wondering about Kelsey, well, everything has been running smooth and as sweet as ever. I can't believe how amazing she is. I mean really, who calls me at 6:30 in the morning just to say "hi" and "I love you"? Well, she does. There was one downside to this whole amazing, beautiful relationship that's blossomed within only a couple months of time. Her mother, who has been nicknamed "The Root of all Evil", has stopped us from being together once already. This is because her and Kelsey's dad are going through the whole divorce process and that really sucks. But, going through this process has shown who's the superiour parent here, and that is obviously her dad.
Anyway, despite our time in the sun being a little delayed, the up side is I'm graduating this summer. Yes, the one thing we all look forward to. And since Kelsey gets out before me, our time in the sun is still coming, and still so very close. Honestly, it's been so long since someone this amazing has ever come into my life. No one can really match up to her at this point in time, and I mean that. No one!!!
As for everything else, things are doing quite alright. I went to the doctor's today and got tons of insulin for free. Normally it would take hundreds of dollars just to keep me alive because well, that shit is expensive. But for the time being I have plenty of insulin to last me a while. That's good, because it saves us money which is going to bring us closer to Wyoming which is where we should have been a long time ago.
I don't wanna go to Wyoming right away since Kelsey is on the other side of these hills known as the Sierra Nevada and I need my time with her before anything else. She does take priority 1 right now and she's going to stay that until my time with her is eternal. I know, I been down this road before with other girls. It's true, I know, but shit they all led me to believe that I'd have an eternal sun with them. Kelsey, though, is so beautiful and she's going to give me that eternal sun and I'm going to be right there with her. At least, with the way things look it's going to be that way.
Honestly...fuck. She's so amazing and she knows this herself...you've made me the happiest man alive. You're going to read this and see that my words hold oh so true. Just come to get me and you'll have me forever and ever and ever and we'll see every sunset and every sunrise together, and I swear on it. I love you, darling.
As for me raving about how amazing Kelsey Elizabeth Herrera is, that's pretty much it.
-Brandon
No Dreams - Dream of a Perfect World?
And They Say the Sun Shines Brighter on the Other Side
Hello, everyone.
It has been quite some time since I've written in this thing, I know, since Brandon Vanbibber's death I never had a reason to write in my blog. But, I have to catch you up on a lot of things.
This is my final year of high school, and I'm in the final semester of it. I can't believe I grew up this fast and I've had this blog for so long; it's rather amazing. It seems like only yesterday I turned 13 and started to become a person with more responsibility and all those other good things. Despite where I stand at this point in time I am still lacking the things most teenagers would have; you know, like a car, a job, a license, etc.
But wait; I'm not a teenager anymore, technically. On January 31 as some may recall, I turned 18. Yes. I'm an adult now and I cannot believe it myself. I knew this day was coming but, now my whole family consists of adults with my recent birthday. And this is an epic year, too: I turn 18, my brother turns 21 in July, my parents both turn 50, and my grandmother turns 80. Such a milestone 2008 is, and always will be.
But now, for a rather high note. A person who I have known on this, well blogging network since like my inception of being here has recently become well...rather close, if you must say. Her name, well, is Kelsey, otherwise known as Shotzie831. We hardly talked in the beginning but now, it's phone calls and IMing on Yahoo everyday, which has been rather special. I've been making her melt since January 29, 2008. She's such a beautiful and sweet girl; her dedication, also unmatched and unchallenged by anyone else I've dated that's long distance. She's all I could ask for in this very time in my life. It seemed like she came out of nowhere, too, since the time she actually got on Yahoo and we talked every now and again, but I never knew she liked me or began to until we started mentioning what we'd send through teleporters and other things. Then it was off to the races with this magical and serene thing we've had for only a couple days.
Now comes the question; could she be the one? I'm not sure. You can never tell this early in a relationship but I can be hopeful she is, because she's so full of life and so bubbly and happy. And yes, since I'm an adult now it does seem like I should be going off looking to run away with a beautiful girl I can call mine forever, just like I have been for so long looking for that person. The fun thing about this whole thing, last night I made her melt by singing HIM...she was just like "Aww!!!" 5-6 times, I swear. I made her turn into liquid and she knows this.
I know this isn't going to be a super long entry, but I did have to make a mention of this new found fire, which hopefully keeps on burning and burning ever so brighter. You're fucking awesome, Kelsey, and I see a long road that involves the both of us. <3
-Brandon
It has been quite some time since I've written in this thing, I know, since Brandon Vanbibber's death I never had a reason to write in my blog. But, I have to catch you up on a lot of things.
This is my final year of high school, and I'm in the final semester of it. I can't believe I grew up this fast and I've had this blog for so long; it's rather amazing. It seems like only yesterday I turned 13 and started to become a person with more responsibility and all those other good things. Despite where I stand at this point in time I am still lacking the things most teenagers would have; you know, like a car, a job, a license, etc.
But wait; I'm not a teenager anymore, technically. On January 31 as some may recall, I turned 18. Yes. I'm an adult now and I cannot believe it myself. I knew this day was coming but, now my whole family consists of adults with my recent birthday. And this is an epic year, too: I turn 18, my brother turns 21 in July, my parents both turn 50, and my grandmother turns 80. Such a milestone 2008 is, and always will be.
But now, for a rather high note. A person who I have known on this, well blogging network since like my inception of being here has recently become well...rather close, if you must say. Her name, well, is Kelsey, otherwise known as Shotzie831. We hardly talked in the beginning but now, it's phone calls and IMing on Yahoo everyday, which has been rather special. I've been making her melt since January 29, 2008. She's such a beautiful and sweet girl; her dedication, also unmatched and unchallenged by anyone else I've dated that's long distance. She's all I could ask for in this very time in my life. It seemed like she came out of nowhere, too, since the time she actually got on Yahoo and we talked every now and again, but I never knew she liked me or began to until we started mentioning what we'd send through teleporters and other things. Then it was off to the races with this magical and serene thing we've had for only a couple days.
Now comes the question; could she be the one? I'm not sure. You can never tell this early in a relationship but I can be hopeful she is, because she's so full of life and so bubbly and happy. And yes, since I'm an adult now it does seem like I should be going off looking to run away with a beautiful girl I can call mine forever, just like I have been for so long looking for that person. The fun thing about this whole thing, last night I made her melt by singing HIM...she was just like "Aww!!!" 5-6 times, I swear. I made her turn into liquid and she knows this.
I know this isn't going to be a super long entry, but I did have to make a mention of this new found fire, which hopefully keeps on burning and burning ever so brighter. You're fucking awesome, Kelsey, and I see a long road that involves the both of us. <3
-Brandon
A loss.
I am sad to say one of my friends has passed away...he did on Friday in a car crash on Fort Churchill Road just east of here. His name was Brandon Vanbibber. He was one of the coolest people you could've known. It's a damn shame he had to go. He was only 17. (I think...)
Rest in peace my friend, you will surely not be forgotten by me. And I hope you are in a better place and I hope I will see you on the other side. -Brandon
Rest in peace my friend, you will surely not be forgotten by me. And I hope you are in a better place and I hope I will see you on the other side. -Brandon
Getting up to speed...again!
Hello everyone once more. I am writing this to fill you in on what's been happening in my life up to this point, not that anyone should (or will) care. But in any case, the school board a little while ago, or the district or something dismantled the whole portfoilo thing as a graduation requirement for Lyon County. So now, I will actually be able to graduate from Dayton High School (oh frickin boy, I get to come from a tiny ass town, go me!).
Staying on that topic, we finally got to gut and take the damn things home. The only things I valued of importance were my transcripts and proficiency test scores, which I passed all of them. The rest, well I ditched in that trash can in math class. Finally a thing which annoyed all of us is now gone and done with.
On another good note, earlier in the week I spoke with a man in the National Weather Service, because my Accounting I teacher knows the guy. The man's name is Mike Bodner, a very respectable person indeed. We spoke of my opprotunities to where I should pursue my meteorological career. He definitely knew I was on track to becoming a meteorologist, and I always have since I was 6 (I know I mentioned this before).
On the weather note, it has been exceptionally warm here. Today's high is supposed to be about 79°F, which is fairly warm for this time of year. We're running about 15 degrees above average. The warm weather makes it feel like spring or even early summer, but the temperatures are going to drop by next week. However, now thunderstorm season is approaching, and this is the time of year that I just love. Thunderstorms happen to be the best time to be outside, despite the possible lethality of it.
In any case, life has been going fairly well. I mean, I know it will be better and hope it will be better by summer time, but I will see how this all plays out. What I've got next coming up is Spring Break, but the possibility of me leaving is probably low. Either that, or I'll be stuck in California like last year. Whatever happens between now in the summer, will be probably surprising or dull. But I will find out. This is all I have to say for now. Peace! -Brandon
Staying on that topic, we finally got to gut and take the damn things home. The only things I valued of importance were my transcripts and proficiency test scores, which I passed all of them. The rest, well I ditched in that trash can in math class. Finally a thing which annoyed all of us is now gone and done with.
On another good note, earlier in the week I spoke with a man in the National Weather Service, because my Accounting I teacher knows the guy. The man's name is Mike Bodner, a very respectable person indeed. We spoke of my opprotunities to where I should pursue my meteorological career. He definitely knew I was on track to becoming a meteorologist, and I always have since I was 6 (I know I mentioned this before).
On the weather note, it has been exceptionally warm here. Today's high is supposed to be about 79°F, which is fairly warm for this time of year. We're running about 15 degrees above average. The warm weather makes it feel like spring or even early summer, but the temperatures are going to drop by next week. However, now thunderstorm season is approaching, and this is the time of year that I just love. Thunderstorms happen to be the best time to be outside, despite the possible lethality of it.
In any case, life has been going fairly well. I mean, I know it will be better and hope it will be better by summer time, but I will see how this all plays out. What I've got next coming up is Spring Break, but the possibility of me leaving is probably low. Either that, or I'll be stuck in California like last year. Whatever happens between now in the summer, will be probably surprising or dull. But I will find out. This is all I have to say for now. Peace! -Brandon
Getting up to speed
Hey everyone. I know I didn't even write anything about my outlook and not even on my birthday (which it was obvious I turned 17 now, hurrah). Life's been going fairly well. I've been playing a game called Freelancer again, playing it online. That's pretty awesome now. I'm in a clan for it called the BlackSquadron. It's a military style based clan where it feels like you're in an army. I like how it's setup. I only recently joined it in the middle of January.
However, I've been showing my skills to my Commanding Officer of the Freelancer Division. We had a training session and I guess I looked pretty impressive. Now he and the rest of the division's crewmen think I deserve a promotion. Pretty sweet, huh. So, if the promotion goes through, I go from Crewman to Ensign. I didn't think I'd be an elite pilot. But apparently I am.
Anyway, moving on from that. The weather finally turned from boring to interesting, as a storm passed through here for a couple days. It brought some rain, both light and heavy at times. The storm is now broken up and clearing out, but it at least put a change in the pace from boring sunny days to rainy days (which are my favorites). Hopefully a stormy pattern will continue. I'll just have to look at the Weather Service's forecasts regularly to see what kind of patterns shape up. Hopefully more storms will occur, right?
Well I really don't know what else to say, so I'll leave it at this. Peace. -Brandon
However, I've been showing my skills to my Commanding Officer of the Freelancer Division. We had a training session and I guess I looked pretty impressive. Now he and the rest of the division's crewmen think I deserve a promotion. Pretty sweet, huh. So, if the promotion goes through, I go from Crewman to Ensign. I didn't think I'd be an elite pilot. But apparently I am.
Anyway, moving on from that. The weather finally turned from boring to interesting, as a storm passed through here for a couple days. It brought some rain, both light and heavy at times. The storm is now broken up and clearing out, but it at least put a change in the pace from boring sunny days to rainy days (which are my favorites). Hopefully a stormy pattern will continue. I'll just have to look at the Weather Service's forecasts regularly to see what kind of patterns shape up. Hopefully more storms will occur, right?
Well I really don't know what else to say, so I'll leave it at this. Peace. -Brandon
New Schedule
Hello everyone, as this upcoming week is Finals Week, a new schedule for me has been made (though only 2 classes changed). Here is the schedule as it stands:
Dayton High School - Schedule for: Brandon S. Weiner - Grade 11 - Semester 2
Note: A days = 1, 3, 5, 7th periods/B days = 2, 4, 5, 6th periods
1st Period: U.S. History
2nd Period: Accounting I
3rd Period: Women in History
4th Period: Chemistry
5th Period: Algebra II
6th Period: Psychology
7th Period: English III
Yeah, it didn't change too much, huh, except for third and sixth periods. The reason for that is the ones that did not change, those classes are year long while the two that did before now are semester long classes.
Oh, on another note, I don't have school tomorrow nor Friday. Monday is Martin Luther King Jr. Day, so that's an obvious reason why I don't. Friday is a teacher in-service day, meaning they have to go and we don't. They are most likely going to be grading our final exams that day.
Also, Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday are literally half days. Here's the schedule for that:
Tuesday: 2nd and 4th Period finals
Wednesday: 1st and 3rd Period finals
Thursday: 6th and 7th Period finals
The finals are 90 mins a piece, with a 10 min break in between the first and second one. After both are done for that day, lunch follows (which is when I can leave). Should I choose to stay I'm stuck until the bus comes. I'll probably just leave, go to the Corner Store, get some food, and hang until 2:15. Other than that, everything has been fine. Nothing's really changed since last time I wrote in this thing.
Or so I thought. Lisa is not coming this month. She's not talking to her friend Amanda anymore...so there's no way for her to pay her way back up here. Plus, she's been having some minor health problems and she's gotta go see a dentist the day before my birthday. So, sadly, she's not going to be up here for my 17th birthday. Fuck!
You know, that really sucks hardcore. I love this girl to death and she won't even be up here to celebrate with me. In fact, I don't know when she's coming back up here now. I'll guess I have to wait and see. But that's okay, I suppose, as it will further prove if this was meant to last or not...and since I'm on the phone with her at this very moment, she said I was crazy. Which is probably true. I know I've got a couple screws loose...no one has to even tell me.
As for now, this should be the end of this entry. I've yet to write my outlook for this year, but that should be done at a later time before my 17th birthday. That is all. Peace. -Brandon
Dayton High School - Schedule for: Brandon S. Weiner - Grade 11 - Semester 2
Note: A days = 1, 3, 5, 7th periods/B days = 2, 4, 5, 6th periods
1st Period: U.S. History
2nd Period: Accounting I
3rd Period: Women in History
4th Period: Chemistry
5th Period: Algebra II
6th Period: Psychology
7th Period: English III
Yeah, it didn't change too much, huh, except for third and sixth periods. The reason for that is the ones that did not change, those classes are year long while the two that did before now are semester long classes.
Oh, on another note, I don't have school tomorrow nor Friday. Monday is Martin Luther King Jr. Day, so that's an obvious reason why I don't. Friday is a teacher in-service day, meaning they have to go and we don't. They are most likely going to be grading our final exams that day.
Also, Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday are literally half days. Here's the schedule for that:
Tuesday: 2nd and 4th Period finals
Wednesday: 1st and 3rd Period finals
Thursday: 6th and 7th Period finals
The finals are 90 mins a piece, with a 10 min break in between the first and second one. After both are done for that day, lunch follows (which is when I can leave). Should I choose to stay I'm stuck until the bus comes. I'll probably just leave, go to the Corner Store, get some food, and hang until 2:15. Other than that, everything has been fine. Nothing's really changed since last time I wrote in this thing.
Or so I thought. Lisa is not coming this month. She's not talking to her friend Amanda anymore...so there's no way for her to pay her way back up here. Plus, she's been having some minor health problems and she's gotta go see a dentist the day before my birthday. So, sadly, she's not going to be up here for my 17th birthday. Fuck!
You know, that really sucks hardcore. I love this girl to death and she won't even be up here to celebrate with me. In fact, I don't know when she's coming back up here now. I'll guess I have to wait and see. But that's okay, I suppose, as it will further prove if this was meant to last or not...and since I'm on the phone with her at this very moment, she said I was crazy. Which is probably true. I know I've got a couple screws loose...no one has to even tell me.
As for now, this should be the end of this entry. I've yet to write my outlook for this year, but that should be done at a later time before my 17th birthday. That is all. Peace. -Brandon
2006: My Year in Review
Hello everyone. It's the end of the year so I thought I would be write an entry to provide the highlights of this year that have occured in my life.
2006 brought a lot of ups and downs for me, in my personal life. Just the December before 2006 came I got type 1 diabetes. That led early 2006 into a really bad year seeing as I was hardly living. It wasn't that fun, you know, hardly eating anything you could and what not. At that point though I still had Tamara, who had brought me through the time I was at the hospital. I still owe her for that (but I won't admit it anymore).
School was going on just fine. January 31 I turned 16. Took the day off from school and simply relaxed for the most part. My old friend David and I usually hung out and drove around Carson City and played pool at Cuephoria (which is now closed, unfortunately). He found himself a girlfriend, Jessica. Those two are still together to this day. In May I found myself a new girl after dumping Tamara for reasons I don't feel like explaining at this point in time. Oddly enough it was Jessica's friend Claudia. Yeah. Another up point for me, as everything I would say worked out fine. We called each other everyday and had a good relationship for a little while. Just ended up that she was a wee bit religious and it didn't work out after nearly 2 months. But no loss there.
Summer didn't really bring anything special. The only thing worth noting during the summer is I was with the Canadians (Seth, Zack, Anikah, Lori (the mom), Noah)for days at a time. That was quite a bit of fun. We fucked around and started a couple fires near the river at like midnight. We also ran around in the thunderstorms that pounded the area. That was pretty much my high point in the summer time. Other than what is stated, I was mainly bored and alone, looking for someone special. But that would come later.
As my Junior year of high school began, I found myself doing a lot better than I had initially thought. I had a new girlfriend named Karena. That didn't last and we tried it more than once to see if we could make anything come out of it. Didn't work. My grades were doing a lot better than the past 2 years I've gone there, with mainly A's and B's along with a stray C here and there. It seemed there were more friends of mine than I thought. Our group in school is fairly big, now. Though mainly composed of little Freshmen. They're all pretty damn cool I'll admit. Being higher up on the scale does seem to get you a little more friends. Also, my reputation around there is a good one. I know a lot of people and they all think I'm pretty cool. I don't get fucked with at school anymore. That's better than my brother Evan who got screwed with, or so they say.
November would prove to be a turning point. An old friend of mine, Lisa, decided she would call around 11:15 at night. I couldn't remember who she was. Oh, how stupid of me. But she provided some great news, that she was coming up to Nevada and she promised she would visit me. Now you see, me and her were dating on and off for 3 1/2 years. With her coming, it would spark an old flame and keep it burning. So I asked her out, and now we're together to this very day I write this. (You could also tell in the entry below this one, too.)
In December, on the 8th, me and my father picked her up along with her friend Amanda from Reno. That was a glorious day, indeed. I couldn't believe my eyes when I saw her, she was everything I could've ever thought of. Now, I thought, I could finally express my love that I've had for this girl for so long. And I had my chance to do that here in the comfort of my own bedroom. I took advantage of that chance and expressed my love for her. I felt like I was in heaven. I can always look back on that weekend that she was here and remember the highest point in my life. It was a bliss that I could only have dreamt of. With that event occuring, she has proven to me she is the one. I may not be fully correct on this, but I'm strongly believing she is the girl for me. As I have always said, the one would either come to me or I would go to her. She proved it by coming out here, almost going out of the way even. Even in the coming year if I lose her, she will never be forgotten. Like that unreleased Linkin Park song, that really was and still is "My December".
In all, 2006 in the beginning started on a low note, and ended on a very high note. I can only hope that 2007 will bring me all the good things the end of this year brought me (Lisa's planning on coming back, in January, so wish me luck on seeing her again, hopefully for my 17th birthday on January 31). I realize this year isn't over yet, but I'm assuming nothing's going to happen between now and midnight on January 1, 2007. Should anything occur, it will be noted.
This is all from me, take care. -Brandon
2006 brought a lot of ups and downs for me, in my personal life. Just the December before 2006 came I got type 1 diabetes. That led early 2006 into a really bad year seeing as I was hardly living. It wasn't that fun, you know, hardly eating anything you could and what not. At that point though I still had Tamara, who had brought me through the time I was at the hospital. I still owe her for that (but I won't admit it anymore).
School was going on just fine. January 31 I turned 16. Took the day off from school and simply relaxed for the most part. My old friend David and I usually hung out and drove around Carson City and played pool at Cuephoria (which is now closed, unfortunately). He found himself a girlfriend, Jessica. Those two are still together to this day. In May I found myself a new girl after dumping Tamara for reasons I don't feel like explaining at this point in time. Oddly enough it was Jessica's friend Claudia. Yeah. Another up point for me, as everything I would say worked out fine. We called each other everyday and had a good relationship for a little while. Just ended up that she was a wee bit religious and it didn't work out after nearly 2 months. But no loss there.
Summer didn't really bring anything special. The only thing worth noting during the summer is I was with the Canadians (Seth, Zack, Anikah, Lori (the mom), Noah)for days at a time. That was quite a bit of fun. We fucked around and started a couple fires near the river at like midnight. We also ran around in the thunderstorms that pounded the area. That was pretty much my high point in the summer time. Other than what is stated, I was mainly bored and alone, looking for someone special. But that would come later.
As my Junior year of high school began, I found myself doing a lot better than I had initially thought. I had a new girlfriend named Karena. That didn't last and we tried it more than once to see if we could make anything come out of it. Didn't work. My grades were doing a lot better than the past 2 years I've gone there, with mainly A's and B's along with a stray C here and there. It seemed there were more friends of mine than I thought. Our group in school is fairly big, now. Though mainly composed of little Freshmen. They're all pretty damn cool I'll admit. Being higher up on the scale does seem to get you a little more friends. Also, my reputation around there is a good one. I know a lot of people and they all think I'm pretty cool. I don't get fucked with at school anymore. That's better than my brother Evan who got screwed with, or so they say.
November would prove to be a turning point. An old friend of mine, Lisa, decided she would call around 11:15 at night. I couldn't remember who she was. Oh, how stupid of me. But she provided some great news, that she was coming up to Nevada and she promised she would visit me. Now you see, me and her were dating on and off for 3 1/2 years. With her coming, it would spark an old flame and keep it burning. So I asked her out, and now we're together to this very day I write this. (You could also tell in the entry below this one, too.)
In December, on the 8th, me and my father picked her up along with her friend Amanda from Reno. That was a glorious day, indeed. I couldn't believe my eyes when I saw her, she was everything I could've ever thought of. Now, I thought, I could finally express my love that I've had for this girl for so long. And I had my chance to do that here in the comfort of my own bedroom. I took advantage of that chance and expressed my love for her. I felt like I was in heaven. I can always look back on that weekend that she was here and remember the highest point in my life. It was a bliss that I could only have dreamt of. With that event occuring, she has proven to me she is the one. I may not be fully correct on this, but I'm strongly believing she is the girl for me. As I have always said, the one would either come to me or I would go to her. She proved it by coming out here, almost going out of the way even. Even in the coming year if I lose her, she will never be forgotten. Like that unreleased Linkin Park song, that really was and still is "My December".
In all, 2006 in the beginning started on a low note, and ended on a very high note. I can only hope that 2007 will bring me all the good things the end of this year brought me (Lisa's planning on coming back, in January, so wish me luck on seeing her again, hopefully for my 17th birthday on January 31). I realize this year isn't over yet, but I'm assuming nothing's going to happen between now and midnight on January 1, 2007. Should anything occur, it will be noted.
This is all from me, take care. -Brandon
No Dreams - Dream of a Perfect World?
The greatest weekend ever, fuck yeah!
Hey everyone. Oh man, do I have a story for you. This weekend was probably the best one I've ever had. Lisa came up to visit this weekend and we're going to drop her and her friend off back in Reno. We picked them up on Friday. (Oh, and by the way, the picture is of me and her, duh!)
I can't really describe how great this went. You'd have to be there to understand, I swear. This is like, a dream that came true. I always knew that the one for me would come and visit me. And now, this has all happened. The best part is, she's coming back in January! Oh man, I got so much coming to me, this is like living in a dream world where everything came true. And hey, I think she might wanna say something:
Okay this is Lisa(DUH)and Brandon dont like the way i type but hey he will get over it cuz i am his lil PRINCESS!!!All i can say is i had an AWSOME WEEKEND with him.It was a great experince and I am glad that he is happi.All i can say is that I LOVE HIM VERY VERY MUCH...and that will never change.Brandon means alot to me and that is going to never change.Brandon is a boi that is a dream...he is like a guy that every gurl wants and needs that is all i know.I love you Brandon Sean Weiner Forever and Alwayz and i hope that you never forget that.I will see you soon again...i know you can wait cuz you waited this long.I LOVE YOU FOREVER AND ALWAYZ!!!!
Love your gurl....Lisa-Ann L.(Weiner)
So yeah, that's what she had to say. As you can tell, this girl is deeply in love with me and I can only feel the same way for her. I can't believe we made it this far after going off and on for 3 1/2 years. Well, since we have to leave soon, this all I have to say for now. Peace! - Brandon
I can't really describe how great this went. You'd have to be there to understand, I swear. This is like, a dream that came true. I always knew that the one for me would come and visit me. And now, this has all happened. The best part is, she's coming back in January! Oh man, I got so much coming to me, this is like living in a dream world where everything came true. And hey, I think she might wanna say something:
Okay this is Lisa(DUH)and Brandon dont like the way i type but hey he will get over it cuz i am his lil PRINCESS!!!All i can say is i had an AWSOME WEEKEND with him.It was a great experince and I am glad that he is happi.All i can say is that I LOVE HIM VERY VERY MUCH...and that will never change.Brandon means alot to me and that is going to never change.Brandon is a boi that is a dream...he is like a guy that every gurl wants and needs that is all i know.I love you Brandon Sean Weiner Forever and Alwayz and i hope that you never forget that.I will see you soon again...i know you can wait cuz you waited this long.I LOVE YOU FOREVER AND ALWAYZ!!!!
Love your gurl....Lisa-Ann L.(Weiner)
So yeah, that's what she had to say. As you can tell, this girl is deeply in love with me and I can only feel the same way for her. I can't believe we made it this far after going off and on for 3 1/2 years. Well, since we have to leave soon, this all I have to say for now. Peace! - Brandon
Getting up to speed, at 23:42 at night
Why hello everyone. I know it's pretty late but I guess I should bring you all up to speed. The weather service is forecasting snow Monday. Hurrah. I wanna go to school in a winter wonderland. I love the snow. There's just something about it that makes me a happy person. I couldn't tell you what it is though.
For the most part, grades have been doing good, school's fine. There's someone special in my life again, too. But I'm not saying who it is. That's been working flawlessly since day one. I think I might have something once again good coming for me. But we'll see, as the summer is when I go visit her. And hopefully, I'll be there all summer, too.
Right as of now, though, I must say. Everything's going good. Perhaps I don't feel my best but everything is great. Also, though I'm forced into going to California for Christmas. So if it snows up here, damn it, I missed a white Christmas. But at least I'll know it snowed.
For now, this is all. Peace.
For the most part, grades have been doing good, school's fine. There's someone special in my life again, too. But I'm not saying who it is. That's been working flawlessly since day one. I think I might have something once again good coming for me. But we'll see, as the summer is when I go visit her. And hopefully, I'll be there all summer, too.
Right as of now, though, I must say. Everything's going good. Perhaps I don't feel my best but everything is great. Also, though I'm forced into going to California for Christmas. So if it snows up here, damn it, I missed a white Christmas. But at least I'll know it snowed.
For now, this is all. Peace.
Desktop pic
This happens to be my desktop now, and the car in the picture is a 1998 Toyota Corolla Rally Car.
My life, as of now
Hello everyone, once more. It seems that I'm on the move, to find a girl once more. Yeah it seems fairly soon, even for me. But I'm lacking the one part of my life that I always dreamed I would have, locally, for a while.
Now comes the hard part. There is a girl I like, and she well knows of it. The biggest problem here, is I'm going after what I can't have (again, god damn it). I don't see how it always happens to me, liking a girl that has a boyfriend. Maybe just the thrill of going after them is fun. There really isn't an answer to that from me. I hate ending up in this situation. It's really hard to deny a like for someone.
I'm hoping I have other options at hand to prevent this from getting any worse. I'm not completely sure of that, either. Why does it happen to the one guy, who has so much love and intelligence and beauty to share? Fuck if I know. I'm that guy, that's all I know for sure. Maybe it's just how my life works. Being single is like being in a deserted place isolated from the rest of the world. I feel ripped off for not being able to share what I have with someone else. Someone will eventually realize there's a lot more to me than meets the eye. And whoever she is, will eventually know how great of a person I can truly be. I'd love to think it's the girl I like at school, but she's had her boyfriend for about a year. There's not much I can do about that, now can I.
On another note, school itself has been going fairly well. My grades are still high and my intelligence when it comes to academics is paying off. I'm still very happy with 5 A's and 2 B's. Also, tomorrow is a half day. I'm hopefully gonna be leaving school around 11:10 instead of leaving at 11:35 when the buses do. My brilliance in school isn't making me anymore popular. But I'm sure glad I can help people when it comes to these kinds of things. But that's not what's gonna land me a girl who's going to respect and love me for the person they will truly see.
I'm starting to question why my life has to revolve around being with someone. The single life is fun, being a flirt is always good. But I'm guessing it's because I wanna show someone the affection that I can give. Flirting can't make up for something as great as a true like or maybe even a love for someone. I know of people who would definitely be with me. But that's only because, well, they live so far away that they've always known the true Brandon. Everyone knows my school and personal life are kept separate. So everyone I deal with at school, does not know, except for a few select people, who I truly am. If those people knew who I was outside of school they'd see me in a different way.
It's not fun, you know, being the nerd. Sure it gets you respect with the administration, and your grades stay high enough that you can always go off campus for lunch, but it gets you nowhere with your friends, or peers. But who I am is who I am. I'm not changing for the sake of others. I'm always gonna be that one guy, that you girls always overlooked because I'm not the prettiest person. But once you realized that I would have been great, and that you would have had a steady and secure relationship with almost everything you wanted, it would be too late. You already shunned me because I'm the nerd and I don't have the looks. And since you have done that, you've made me believe you want nothing, even when you might really want it.
I'm not sure how much more I can go on. But I'm still going to leave it to the point. I like someone, and she has a boyfriend, so therefore I must get over the fact I like her. And it'd surely be a lot easier if someone around here likes me. I'll give you a chance, and not out of desperation. Out of the light that being with someone makes me feel good about myself and makes me feel like I belong and I'm wanted. That's actually going to be all. Later. ›››βяλпdόп λĸλ Ŧнε Оиз λпď Ōŋłŷ βцяит Łαяdλѕѕ‹‹‹
Now comes the hard part. There is a girl I like, and she well knows of it. The biggest problem here, is I'm going after what I can't have (again, god damn it). I don't see how it always happens to me, liking a girl that has a boyfriend. Maybe just the thrill of going after them is fun. There really isn't an answer to that from me. I hate ending up in this situation. It's really hard to deny a like for someone.
I'm hoping I have other options at hand to prevent this from getting any worse. I'm not completely sure of that, either. Why does it happen to the one guy, who has so much love and intelligence and beauty to share? Fuck if I know. I'm that guy, that's all I know for sure. Maybe it's just how my life works. Being single is like being in a deserted place isolated from the rest of the world. I feel ripped off for not being able to share what I have with someone else. Someone will eventually realize there's a lot more to me than meets the eye. And whoever she is, will eventually know how great of a person I can truly be. I'd love to think it's the girl I like at school, but she's had her boyfriend for about a year. There's not much I can do about that, now can I.
On another note, school itself has been going fairly well. My grades are still high and my intelligence when it comes to academics is paying off. I'm still very happy with 5 A's and 2 B's. Also, tomorrow is a half day. I'm hopefully gonna be leaving school around 11:10 instead of leaving at 11:35 when the buses do. My brilliance in school isn't making me anymore popular. But I'm sure glad I can help people when it comes to these kinds of things. But that's not what's gonna land me a girl who's going to respect and love me for the person they will truly see.
I'm starting to question why my life has to revolve around being with someone. The single life is fun, being a flirt is always good. But I'm guessing it's because I wanna show someone the affection that I can give. Flirting can't make up for something as great as a true like or maybe even a love for someone. I know of people who would definitely be with me. But that's only because, well, they live so far away that they've always known the true Brandon. Everyone knows my school and personal life are kept separate. So everyone I deal with at school, does not know, except for a few select people, who I truly am. If those people knew who I was outside of school they'd see me in a different way.
It's not fun, you know, being the nerd. Sure it gets you respect with the administration, and your grades stay high enough that you can always go off campus for lunch, but it gets you nowhere with your friends, or peers. But who I am is who I am. I'm not changing for the sake of others. I'm always gonna be that one guy, that you girls always overlooked because I'm not the prettiest person. But once you realized that I would have been great, and that you would have had a steady and secure relationship with almost everything you wanted, it would be too late. You already shunned me because I'm the nerd and I don't have the looks. And since you have done that, you've made me believe you want nothing, even when you might really want it.
I'm not sure how much more I can go on. But I'm still going to leave it to the point. I like someone, and she has a boyfriend, so therefore I must get over the fact I like her. And it'd surely be a lot easier if someone around here likes me. I'll give you a chance, and not out of desperation. Out of the light that being with someone makes me feel good about myself and makes me feel like I belong and I'm wanted. That's actually going to be all. Later. ›››βяλпdόп λĸλ Ŧнε Оиз λпď Ōŋłŷ βцяит Łαяdλѕѕ‹‹‹
A little note
This is simply a little note, that as of today, I am single again. Which is better for me, so I can be a flirt again. Fuck yeah. -Brandon
Updates
Hey everyone. Though yes, it has been a week since Karena and I have been together, I doubt we're gonna make it to two weeks. Today wasn't a very good day in that aspect. Her playing mind games with me is completely unacceptable. And not to mention her turning her back on me pissed me off too.
There's also several other factors. This kinda just made me believe a little more that this isn't gonna work. Seeing as her mom is an asshole apparently, she cannot leave the house. And now I'm getting my doubts on how this is even gonna fly outside of school. For you see, I'm in my element outside of school when I have all my things with me. My music, my comfort, and lots of things. The only thing I have at school is my music which I can't even listen to during class.
I am proud to report, however, I have further upped my GPA to a 3.714. 5 A's and 2 B's. I'm doing a lot better this year than last. That's probably due to the fact I need to get my ass in gear which I have been doing, to graduate in 2008. I'm very much so looking forward to that.
On other notes, if me and Karena don't work out, I'm starting to believe that I will have options available to me. I'm sure one of my buddies, Shayla, could find me someone. She's got plenty of friends and she said I needed to meet one yesterday which I'm kinda hoping I will. And, perhaps, my friend Tye and some other people are gonna go chill out in the mountains at a party this weekend. That, if it comes to be, should be fun. Though I think the weather's not gonna be the greatest for doing it. Temperatures have been staying around in the low 60s to upper 50s. And according to the National Weather Service in Reno, Nevada, the temperature down in Dayton on Saturday will be 67°F. That's better than today, which was forecasted to be 59°F. It actually stayed fairly cold. In fact, the heater's been activated already because of the cooler Fall weather.
All in all, I'm having my doubts on how long this relationship is going to last. And if it doesn't, at this point in time I could really care less. And this is all from me. Peace. ›››βяλпdόп λĸλ Ŧнε Оиз λпď Ōŋłŷ βцяит Łαяdλѕѕ‹‹‹
There's also several other factors. This kinda just made me believe a little more that this isn't gonna work. Seeing as her mom is an asshole apparently, she cannot leave the house. And now I'm getting my doubts on how this is even gonna fly outside of school. For you see, I'm in my element outside of school when I have all my things with me. My music, my comfort, and lots of things. The only thing I have at school is my music which I can't even listen to during class.
I am proud to report, however, I have further upped my GPA to a 3.714. 5 A's and 2 B's. I'm doing a lot better this year than last. That's probably due to the fact I need to get my ass in gear which I have been doing, to graduate in 2008. I'm very much so looking forward to that.
On other notes, if me and Karena don't work out, I'm starting to believe that I will have options available to me. I'm sure one of my buddies, Shayla, could find me someone. She's got plenty of friends and she said I needed to meet one yesterday which I'm kinda hoping I will. And, perhaps, my friend Tye and some other people are gonna go chill out in the mountains at a party this weekend. That, if it comes to be, should be fun. Though I think the weather's not gonna be the greatest for doing it. Temperatures have been staying around in the low 60s to upper 50s. And according to the National Weather Service in Reno, Nevada, the temperature down in Dayton on Saturday will be 67°F. That's better than today, which was forecasted to be 59°F. It actually stayed fairly cold. In fact, the heater's been activated already because of the cooler Fall weather.
All in all, I'm having my doubts on how long this relationship is going to last. And if it doesn't, at this point in time I could really care less. And this is all from me. Peace. ›››βяλпdόп λĸλ Ŧнε Оиз λпď Ōŋłŷ βцяит Łαяdλѕѕ‹‹‹
Ah, I think I have a life again.
Hello everybody. Yes the title is a bit weird, but it is indeed true. As I may have once put before if I don't have anyone I don't have a life. So what the fuck could that mean? I have someone now. And hopefully for a long time. This actually occured Monday, but I wasn't completely sure if it was gonna last for longer than 24 hours. But seeing as this is Tuesday, and everything has gone well, it has. Her name is Karena. Yes. What can I say, I've had my eyes on her for a little while. And we've been even acting like we were together before we were actually together.
I can only hope that this turns out to be something that's meaningful and lasts quite a while. She knows all too well that I'm definitely able to commit and stick to something. I can only hope she does the same for me. If everything goes well then it looks like a great relationship is going over the horizon. This year has been better for me, honestly. With more friends and closer friends and having good grades (I think a 3.571 GPA reflects this!), I know this year has been going smooth and nicely. This is also Homecoming week out here in Dayton. The only sad thing about this whole bit, I can't take her to the dance on Saturday. That really bums me out but there's other opprotunities for this relationship to advance to the next level.
I honestly believe I have it all made. My life could not be any better. Well it could, if it rains really hard. That would seal the deal right there. It has rained in the past couple days, but only at night when it seems precipitation likes to filter into Western Nevada. Of course, the best things always occur at night.
There is another downfall to being with her. I can only see her within the school setting (and she only lives right down the street from me, which is fucked). The reason for that is because her mom and aunt are apparently assholes and won't let her leave her house. I'm sure if I was introduced to her mom, and my parents introduced to her mom too, things would change. But seeing as this is only the first week let alone the second whole day of being with her, I have to make sure this relationship is on a solid footing. I'll know if that is true if I advance to a week of being with her. Overall at this point that seems highly likely.
All in all, I have to honestly say my life has turned around like it should have. With Karena being in the picture, my life can only improve further. If I do make it to a week with her, I know I'm on a solid foundation for a good relationship. If that does occur, it should be noted and put on here. But if something occurs before the next Monday, that will be noted and put on here too. I really don't have much more to say, so I believe I'm done for now. Peace! ›››βяλпdόп λĸλ Ŧнε Оиз λпď Ōŋłŷ βцяит Łαяdλѕѕ‹‹‹
I can only hope that this turns out to be something that's meaningful and lasts quite a while. She knows all too well that I'm definitely able to commit and stick to something. I can only hope she does the same for me. If everything goes well then it looks like a great relationship is going over the horizon. This year has been better for me, honestly. With more friends and closer friends and having good grades (I think a 3.571 GPA reflects this!), I know this year has been going smooth and nicely. This is also Homecoming week out here in Dayton. The only sad thing about this whole bit, I can't take her to the dance on Saturday. That really bums me out but there's other opprotunities for this relationship to advance to the next level.
I honestly believe I have it all made. My life could not be any better. Well it could, if it rains really hard. That would seal the deal right there. It has rained in the past couple days, but only at night when it seems precipitation likes to filter into Western Nevada. Of course, the best things always occur at night.
There is another downfall to being with her. I can only see her within the school setting (and she only lives right down the street from me, which is fucked). The reason for that is because her mom and aunt are apparently assholes and won't let her leave her house. I'm sure if I was introduced to her mom, and my parents introduced to her mom too, things would change. But seeing as this is only the first week let alone the second whole day of being with her, I have to make sure this relationship is on a solid footing. I'll know if that is true if I advance to a week of being with her. Overall at this point that seems highly likely.
All in all, I have to honestly say my life has turned around like it should have. With Karena being in the picture, my life can only improve further. If I do make it to a week with her, I know I'm on a solid foundation for a good relationship. If that does occur, it should be noted and put on here. But if something occurs before the next Monday, that will be noted and put on here too. I really don't have much more to say, so I believe I'm done for now. Peace! ›››βяλпdόп λĸλ Ŧнε Оиз λпď Ōŋłŷ βцяит Łαяdλѕѕ‹‹‹
My school's new dress code
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school This was taken off of my post from a forum I frequent, E-Studios Forums. The original post is here: http://forum.cncreneclips.com/index.php?showtopic=7625
First off, I don't know if this belongs in SYD or if it belongs anywhere else, or if this is even worth discussing.
Anyway, my school is enforcing a new dress code come tomorrow morning. It is apparently 'gang related' if I wear all one color to school now. Wearing band shirts, having piercings, gloves, pants with chains sewed permanently into them, loose fit pants, shorter skirts on girls, almost anything you wear in a normal life is unacceptable now. A lot of my school is going to walk out tomorrow morning.
I smell a revolution on the rise. A lot of the students at Dayton High School aren't going to let this stand. I'm one of them. I'm going to be wearing my HIM shirt tomorrow morning, and if they got a problem with it then they have some serious issues. There aren't any gangs out here in the middle of Nevada. And they know this.
They're even going to lengths to have a dress code check every month supposedly, where my vice-principal comes up on the intercom and says "Teachers tell your students to stand up it's dress code check time."
Oh, did I forget to mention having a jacket or sweater with a hood is gang related too? Well it is now. So that means when it's 15°F out I have to freeze my ass off because I don't have a jacket without a hood on it. This also means when it rains or snows heavily I get to have my hair soaked with precipitation. But that's not going to happen because I'm gonna wear my jackets whether they give a rat's ass or not.
What can I say. This isn't the rest of the administration's fault, this is the doing of my new principal. Since he comes from Las Vegas where gangs run rampant, he apparently can't figure out the Dayton community is a relatively peaceful place.
Any thoughts or comments on this?
First off, I don't know if this belongs in SYD or if it belongs anywhere else, or if this is even worth discussing.
Anyway, my school is enforcing a new dress code come tomorrow morning. It is apparently 'gang related' if I wear all one color to school now. Wearing band shirts, having piercings, gloves, pants with chains sewed permanently into them, loose fit pants, shorter skirts on girls, almost anything you wear in a normal life is unacceptable now. A lot of my school is going to walk out tomorrow morning.
I smell a revolution on the rise. A lot of the students at Dayton High School aren't going to let this stand. I'm one of them. I'm going to be wearing my HIM shirt tomorrow morning, and if they got a problem with it then they have some serious issues. There aren't any gangs out here in the middle of Nevada. And they know this.
They're even going to lengths to have a dress code check every month supposedly, where my vice-principal comes up on the intercom and says "Teachers tell your students to stand up it's dress code check time."
Oh, did I forget to mention having a jacket or sweater with a hood is gang related too? Well it is now. So that means when it's 15°F out I have to freeze my ass off because I don't have a jacket without a hood on it. This also means when it rains or snows heavily I get to have my hair soaked with precipitation. But that's not going to happen because I'm gonna wear my jackets whether they give a rat's ass or not.
What can I say. This isn't the rest of the administration's fault, this is the doing of my new principal. Since he comes from Las Vegas where gangs run rampant, he apparently can't figure out the Dayton community is a relatively peaceful place.
Any thoughts or comments on this?
School days
Hello everyone. The past few weeks have been fairly good, nonetheless. School's going fine. I'm still without someone I could say I love but at the current moment in time having someone isn't a top priority, though it would improve my state of mind a little bit. My grades have been doing fine as well. And the whole disease thing has been working fine, as shown by me buying pizza for everyone on Friday. That was fun, we were lucky enough to be able to sit down and eat, before the bell rang for 5th period. You know, I have to say this year has been going really well. I mean, I'm not depressed or nothing, I got my tunes blasting in my ears to drown everyone out on the bus, and my friends haven't been any closer. I gots a bunch of girls that like me and if I'm lucky enough I can get one of them. It really can't get any better than this so far. And above all my school career has been going great. Chemistry is a blast, and Accounting is a walk in the park as I predicted. For the record even I'm going to jump the gun pretty far in Accounting, and I have it tomorrow as well. Same with Chemistry. Everything is getting better, my friends. There's a possibility my brother may return to Dayton and live with us, but I doubt this. Though it would benefit me in one way, and that would be I get a newer, better computer which is the current one he's using at the moment. He would not have my room and he would be forced to live downstairs (which is parallel to me being forced down there this time last year). In any case my life is good, I may have options to make my love life improve, and I'm happy for the most part. This is all from me. Peace. ›››βяλпdόп λĸλ Ŧнε Оиз λпď Ōŋłŷ βцяит Łαяdλѕѕ‹‹‹
No Dreams - Dream of a Perfect World?
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